BEHIND THE SMILES

A smile according to the internet means:

• To express amusement, pleasure, moderate joy, or love and kindness, by the features of the face; to
• To look gay and joyous; to have an appearance suited to excite joy;

As these meaning goes there are evident words like HAPPINESS, JOY AND KINDNESS. So in general, smile is just an expression of beautiful feelings in the world.

But as time goes by, these meanings enter many revisions. The dramatic changes and additions like- smile could be used as a curtain, a veil of hidden feelings like SADNESS, AGONY, FEAR AND PAIN.

Behind all the smiles, there are many things going on... There are many words unsaid and many feelings not released. Nowadays, many people are still smiling even in tough times, but behind all these the real story unfolds.

One of the examples of these hardships is discrimination. This is one of the leading problems that students have.

For me, discrimination is a term that pertains to harmful words either said verbally or from behind. Also, when the people around someone are judging him because of his physical characteristic or capabilities is a form of discriminating. There is also the feeling of uneasiness and being shy and quiet. The common effects of this are sadness, pain and isolation. There is also a tendency for that person to hide what he can do and would not excel in school or would have an emotional problem.

And with this trend... I AM NOT AN EXEMPTION

I remember that the most common discrimination I had is the “back-stabbing”. This is when people talk badly behind someone. There is one in my school, when I beat a girl in a social quiz, she let her mother came to school and told stories to my teachers that I should not win a competition. Next one is a guy, his friend told me that he’s saying that my grades and efforts in studying are useless and my correct answers are just a matter of luck. As a person who give importance to studying and fighting fair and square, I am offended, I was hurt…because he is a person who always ask me about things. I never thought that he would say something like that. That’s why I confronted it and I became angry…The emotions rushed that time..

All the people that I mention above are my friends… I don’t know to them but I treat them as friends. I know that there are still many, but even just those few words hurt me… how about if it’s many??

I am hurt and also to others that experience harder words. But having the people who are dear to you, say those awful words hits the hardest.
When I came home, my mom said that I should control my emotions because I am in a rush, she said that maybe he’s just a victim of lies. As I breathe and think about it, I realized that my mom is right… I am not the only victim of back-stab and lies.

I learned that the world is not that perfect and we can please all the people. And that we should save something only for ourselves because we cannot predict a human’s mind. But still I put this is mind…

That no matter how many people discriminate me, they do not have my life so I can live it the way I want to... I can do my best and be happy even in their existence. And I believe that God would be blessing them for them to understand the people around them.

^ anger turns into love ^